December 2011
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idk wtf is wrong with me. I get weird at night.
ovo-and-that-xo:
By the light of the moon
The thought of death takes hold
It grips me tightly in its grasp
In it’s boney, cold clutch
My mind becomes a prison
There is no longer the will
There is no longer the hope
There is no longer the desire
Nothing to guide me to the dawn
I just continually wonder
Will it finally end or will it go on
Will I awake in the morning
Or will I be...
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ovo-and-that-xo:
My heart is shattering
The demon to which I cling
Made me lose the angel I so needed
The angel came to know of the demon
That to through my own words
And as I saw the angel retreat
I knew I had lost all that had meaning
In this apathetic mortality
Simply for what I wanted but never ever needed
The one that could have saved me
Was made wretched by my idiocy
But I vow...
October 2011
2 posts
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Day 2- Who was the last person you texted? Write a...
You’re funny and you’re bright
You fill my day with light
When I’m down you pick me up
When I wake up I see your “sup?”
You’re my little sister, you’re my best-friend
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Day 1- Write a poem where each line starts with a...
“Righteous” men lead the masses
Into slaughter they go in the lords name
True faith cannot be shown by the blood of your brothers
Unredeemed you shall remain
September 2011
1 post
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gank-the-jefferson-starships:
As I sat my worries grew
My mind whirled in thought
And the wind in full force blew
Amidst my delusions I was caught
It was always or never true
Just another way to confuse
I no longer have any clue
In the end I must refuse
The insanity I can not take
Everyday is filled with cries
Thus I will surely break
The illusions revealed as lies
Meh, I wrote it....
August 2011
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deathbyapathy:
Look me in the eyes
Please tell me you didn’t lie
Your silence I fear
July 2011
7 posts
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deathbyapathy:
If I told you I don’t love you
It’d be a lie
If I told you I didn’t care
It’d be a lie
You became my all
And I lost myself
I wish I had known
I was nothing to you
For a whole year
I’ve lived with this pain
And will continue to
Why did you hurt me
The way you did
You shouldn’t have led me on
You shouldn’t have shown me
dream of happiness and love
You should have...
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deathbyapathy:
I sit here all alone
Desperate for your reply
My heart yearns to hear from you
Yet I get nothing
But I shall not continue this
For it only brings me pain
Now you will know only my wrath
A burning blade of fury
It will cut into you
leaving a pain like no other
As each stroke gets deeper
You will bleed as I bled
You will burn as I burnt
No plea of mercy will save you...
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“You’re broken
I’m broken
Lets become
We’re broken”
– Me (to you…)
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deathbyapathy:
You’ve destroyed me for the last time
You will never regain entry into my heart
You’ve had your chance and you blew it
You will never know the warmth of my love
You’ve made your decision now live with it
You will never find another that loves you as I do
You’ve lost the opportunity of a life time
You will never hear from me again
I could love a demon
Because I am just as dark
I could make him pure
Absorb the darkness
into my own heart
I’d love him
Even when the sun burnt out
Or the world were destroyed
I’d make sure he remain
safe
pure
loved
even if it cost me my soul
I’d do all that I could
All that I can
For him to return
from the wretchedness
-deathBYapathy
You leave me hanging
If only I could tell you
You are the one I want
But you are too pre-ocupied
Too pre-occupied by her thoughts
I am here yet invisible to you
I just want you to see me
as I see you
But I know
It will never happen
So I must keep this secret
Though my soul burns
only for you…
-deathBYapathy
Guy's tell me topics to write about! My mind is...
June 2011
39 posts
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There is but only onething left to say.
I must leave and go far away.
It is better for you if I leave,
I love you dearly, but please don’t grieve.
One day you will see the reason why,
And you will know it wasn’t a lie.
Remember that I love you so very much,
And I will always hold close your tender touch.
-deathBYapathy
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I'm bored so I wrote this :)
deathbyapathy:
You are perfection
In the eyes of so many
But for sure in mine
-deathBYapathy
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Will you still love me
Even if you know my truth
I hope we wont change
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You are the darkness
You are the impending doom
Yet I still love you
-deathBYapathy
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I don’t know why, but I’m a fool for you. All I want is to be with you forever, do you want the same thing as me? Do you love me, as I love you…? These are questions I will never have the courage to ask you. Though I love you more than anything, even more than me, I know I cannot have you. Although you are not mine to own, your heart will be owned. I hope you will choose me for...
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Anyone wanna read the first little bit of a story...
let me know
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Your eyes, an ocean
I’m lost within, forever
I love you dearly
-deathBYapathy
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I see your eyes, and I’m lost.
Why do you tease me in this way?
You know it drives me crazy,
That look makes my mind hazy.
My heart flutters away,
You do this to me every day!
-deathBYapathy
“(Deathbyapathy)
I see you
You see me
our eyes meet
our hearts beat
letting...”
– deathbyapathy for the first part
collab
(via wretchedamongthebeautiful)
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I dont know why I like you,
We have no chance of survival.
the distance alone would destroy,
destroy anything we try to build.
So please help be get over you,
Or teach me to build stability.
-deathBYapathy
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someone send me anon hate msgs so that i can feel...
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I want to be freed.
Freed of this prison,
This prison of despair.
Only breakable form outside,
And I’m stuck inside!
Maybe it will never,
Ever be broken.
Forever alone…
-deathBYapathy
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Boy is it amazing getting yelled at by your family for being depressed… That’s not going to make the hopelessness go away. You’d think they were the people that would understand you most, yet its seems as though they are complete strangers. I don’t know what to do anymore about all of this! I can’t even tell them my truth or secrets. And I don’t think it will...
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My mind is lost in the abyss. I believe no one can save it or me now…
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The thought of you makes me weep.
Thinking of what we could be,
Knowing we will never be.
My heart was safe in a fortress,
But you managed to steal it.
Your heart was under maximum security,
I couldn’t even go near it.
Now my heart is locked away with yours,
No other will ever feel it.
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I’m afraid to speak to you,
Yet I can’t stop myself.
I fear you’ll hurt me,
and it’ll be my own fault.
Please don’t lead me to believe,
That you feel for me.
Break my heart now,
So the pain will be easy.
Though my heart may never repair,
At least it’ll be numb quicker.
Please don’t let me fall for you,
Don’t let me give you my all.
If my...
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Collaboration with paintmesecure.tumblr.com
writtenBYme(deathBYapathy): My lonely existence is a window-less prison I wonder if anyone has a cell key I worry that no one will be come for me I hear footsteps in the distance, could this really be? I hope its someone to save me, someone come to set me free Paintmesecure: I feel their essence at the foot of the door, and I feel my soul drop to the freezing floor. My hands are trembling, and I...
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You knew I loved you dearly
Yet not once were you phased
Your insults they continued
Yet not once did I go astray
Now I sit here thinking to myself
“What is it that I did?”
You said it was a mistake
Yet I saw your every move calculated
You told me not to leave you
Yet with a broken heart I say
Goodbye.
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The monsters in my head won’t stop, they just keep buzzing! The hopelessness is never ending. As the days pass the hole just keeps getting deeper and darker, riddling my soul. Its a sick twisted disease infecting my mind and soul, slowly taking over, every minute every second. Still, no one listens to me! I just want help to rid myself of this beast ripping into the very essence of my being!...
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Why do I fall for you? I never understood what it is that intrigues me… Maybe it’s your mysterious eyes. Or your beautiful words… What ever it is, I’ve been baited and hooked. I cannot remain this way, especially since you have no such interest in me. As I begin to realize this my sadness grows, but I must remain strong and banish these feelings. They will only destroy me...
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I was so easily entranced,
It only took a single glance.
I don’t know if it was your eyes,
Or the illusion of the lies.
Now that I see the dawn,
You’ll regret it and I’m gone.
-deathBYapathy
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Look at what they have done to me,
Your simple written words.
I never knew I could feel this way
For a nameless bird.
Maybe I’m over thinking it,
But I keep falling bit by bit.
-deathBYapathy
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I read your words, but are they true.
Maybe this doubt I have is undue.
It’s hollow glass, this heart of mine.
It’ll easily break, please don’t cross that line.
You could fill it with your love.
Bring my soul peace like a dove.
I’d walk countless miles for your embrace.
Just so that I could be in your grace.
-deathBYapathy
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I’d tell you how your words make me feel,
had I the correct words to say.
I’d read the words over and over,
had more time in the day.
I’ll tell you one thing for sure,
I hope that you will stay.
I’ll let you know another secret,
With each word my heart flutters away!
-deathBYapathy
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Life is like a flower
When it first blooms young and fresh
Slowly growing, maturing, and learning
Beautiful and energized
Nevertheless, sadly one day it must wither
Growing older, getting weaker
Eventually it wilts decomposing into dirt
-deathBYapathy
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Like a little bright light in the darkness
A ray of hope when all is lost
Always filling the emptiness
Showing that life is not only black and white
Helping me discover the many colours of life
You’re are my soul my life
My most cherished item
My music collection
-deathBYapathy
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Your proper identity lost
Your always all alone
Your hatred keeps growing larger
Your heart is cold and hard like stone
No one ever hears all your screams
The pain will never stop
When you sleep at night, you don’t dream
The anger in you will soon explode
Steadily your anger builds
Your kindness is not there
Abandoned by your family
You wonder why and where
Now you know to live for...
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Rivers Flow Gently
Steadily Crossing The Great Land
Steady Rushing Calms
-deathBYapathy
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Children of the night,
Whom come out in the shining moon light.
Everlasting like the amaranth,
Cursed to prey upon the mortal.
To quench thy ill-fated thirst.
Forever seen for thy merciless acts of slaying
Always misunderstood
For thy only wish is life.
For death is undesirable
To all whom tread this earth.
-deathBYapathy
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Unworthy of redeeming,
Forever lost in the shadows of pain and misery.
For no hero will come,
To save the souls of the lost.
All hope has disappeared,
As anger and hatred consume.
The darkness overshadows
And the souls turn black.
-deathBYapathy
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Freezing night, you have trapped me in your shadows.
For even a single breath,
Feels as though to be piercing my body.
Painfully as a cold ice-covered blade,
Slowly puncturing my flesh.
Oh sun for when will you shine your radiance upon me,
And free me of this freezing hell.
-deathBYapathy
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Inner demons you cannot stop
Slowly they capture you
They destroy your soul and you drop
You lie still on the floor
As your heart becomes a cold stone
Slowly filled with darkness
You have become a mindless drone
Torrent hatred released
Fueled by resentment it terminates
Steadily anger flows
All your kindness exterminates
All of your love replaced
You fear the day you are on trial
For...
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I’m falling
I call for help
No one comes
I hurtle towards the ground
Falling
Screaming
Shouting
No one hears
I continue to fall
Still screaming
Still shouting
Still no one hears
Farther down
I go
I scream
I shout
No one saves me
-deathBYapathy
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I’ve stayed awake for hours, my mind in the clouds.
My thoughts fogged and my vision hazed,
All that I know is my pain.
But this fog masks it, even I forget it exists.
With this haze no other will see,
Deep into the depths of my soul, where
Only my holes appear.
-deathBYapathy
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Music is a wave of euphoria!
When ever it hits, I’m left gasping,
Trying to catch my breath so beautifully knocked out of me.
Each note gracefully caresses my ear drum;
My mind explodes into a garden of scales.
And the sounds become flowers,
Swaying in a warm summer breeze.
My soul becomes freed like a bird let out of a cage.
Away I drift, into my own world,
as I’m guided into fantastic...